Remember MTV in the good ol’ days when the Real Life cast would go in for confessions? Does that age me? Those infamous scenes of young cast members sharing their intimate thoughts are what came to mind while I wrote this post in my head. And when I say intimate, it pretty much means meaningless complaints about their stranger roommates. Anyway… what I’m getting at is I don’t want this post to be meaningless. It’s meant to be fun and give you a little further insight into what I do behind the scenes.
I’ve had a lot of different thoughts swirling around in my head this year when I think about blogging. My New Year’s resolution to be more intentional still rings in my ears as I sit down to plan all my content. I’ve wanted to be more transparent, which I’m working on, and I also want to steer this thing in the right direction at all times. All of that being said, I thought it would be fun to put together some “blogger confessions”. Because life behind this computer screen isn’t always what you may think.
Confession #1: I don’t always feel “inspired”
I love being creative and I’m always seeking out new things to discover, learn and potentially write about. But, it’s not always easy. There are days when scheduling content feels like an absolute chore and my writers block gets so bad, I want to throw in the towel. That would be easy. What’s not easy is being determined and pushing through – something that has taken a lot of practice, but I’ve learned to do. Finding inspiration can be hard work and some people don’t realize that.
Confession #2: I could care less about Instagram
For a while there, all my focus was on Instagram. I would stress myself out over getting the right photo or figuring out times to take daily photos. Then making sure to post at exactly the right time. After all that, I’d spend hours engaging and trying to gain followers. Absolutely exhausting. A few months ago, I began to realize how frustrated I am with the entire platform. I’m uninspired by seeing the same thing over and over and feeling like my content was the same thing… over and over.
Don’t get me wrong, I love having a visual outlet where I can follow fellow bloggers & interact on a daily basis. But… it should not be the sole focus. Recently, I’ve reminded myself that Instagram has never been my intention. I love being able to use it as an additional way to show my readers what I’m up to, but my website will always be my #1 focus.
Confession #3: I rarely love the photos taken of me
I use the word “love” instead of “like” because by now, I’m very used to looking at pictures of myself and I never absolutely hate anything. It’s more a of “whatever, that’s fine” attitude. On the flip side, rarely do I look at a photo and absolutely love how it turned out. I’m used to looking at myself, but I’ll never enjoy that part of the process. Trust me, I share these photos to enhance my creative outlet and share clothes I love, but never to show off my face.
Confession #4: It’s very easy to lose yourself in the blog-o-sphere
I’ve caught myself countless times trying to be someone else. I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis and look at other bloggers on Instagram constantly. Part of it is to keep up on trends, part of it is to create and and participate in a community and then there’s a little room for pure enjoyment. However, b being submerged in this world all day can be a slippery slope to creating something inauthentic. I constantly remind myself to take a step back and decide whether I’m buying clothes or sharing a photo just because the girl with 10k followers did it, or if I’m actually into it. The latter is what you all (hopefully) come here to read about, so I’m staying true to myself.
xoxo. B
